Halfway through. My energy is seeping through me like finely grained sand in my hands. It's so damn hard. I come to realise I cannot be the person I normally am. Suddenly acts of courtesy becomes insurmountable. I've dropped most interactions with others. My friends are remarkably supportive and I really wish I had more… Continue reading Giving give and take takeaways
Do you feel lucky, punk?
For anyone dealing with a crisis like this, you need to look at strategies to minimize the fear. Because it's such a great blow to the life you're living, it's crucial that you actively don't get sucked in the vortex of fear and despair. I have met so many amazing people online that send out… Continue reading Do you feel lucky, punk?
Do I look weird to you?
People can be so rude. I never cease to be amazed by this fact. They actually stand with open mouths and stare and turn their heads. Some people don't even conceal it; it's as if you don't exist to them. You're such a deviation that you're ripped of your humanity. You're not a person… Continue reading Do I look weird to you?
Bald and hairy legs. Not the definition of the perfect woman. More like a middle aged man. And nonetheless how I look now. Funny thing is that all this change in my appearance has only strengthened my self-esteem. It's as though all the things that could make me insecure before seems so tiny now, that… Continue reading Womanly wonder
Dealing with ordeal in an orderly manner
My life companion, best friend and partner in crime has been the best support I could ever imagine at these crazy times. Not only does he know me like nobody else, but he's also the most loyal and compassionate person I know. So the other day we went for a chemo café trip; to plan… Continue reading Dealing with ordeal in an orderly manner
Big bad chemo
So the big day finally arrived. I'd lie if I told you I wasn't scared or anxious before going to my first chemotherapy session. It's always frightening to go to places you haven't been before, both physically and mentally. In my mind chemo has always been one of the most horrifying situations I could imagine.… Continue reading Big bad chemo