I firmly believe that a part of the healing after a mastectomy, or any other body transforming surgery for that matter, is not only to get to accept your new body, but to have the right to love it. And even more importantly, to not be defined by this body alone. That requires confidence and… Continue reading The weight of cancer
Month: May 2017
Dealing with ordeal in an orderly manner
My life companion, best friend and partner in crime has been the best support I could ever imagine at these crazy times. Not only does he know me like nobody else, but he's also the most loyal and compassionate person I know. So the other day we went for a chemo café trip; to plan… Continue reading Dealing with ordeal in an orderly manner
Big bad chemo
So the big day finally arrived. I'd lie if I told you I wasn't scared or anxious before going to my first chemotherapy session. It's always frightening to go to places you haven't been before, both physically and mentally. In my mind chemo has always been one of the most horrifying situations I could imagine.… Continue reading Big bad chemo
Good hairday
Putting on one of my favourite tunes "Devils haircut" by Beck, we got into the mood. I have been really excited about going bald today. Don't think I would have done this without chemo, but now that it's happening it feels like it's the right thing to do. Making it a positive event all together… Continue reading Good hairday
We – the system
I'm turning the pages of the portfolio of the plastic surgeon. She's understandably proud of her work. "I'm sure I can get a very good result with you," she reassures me, while I'm looking at small breasts, medium breasts, large breasts. They're all fake, it's easy to see. It's undeniable good work, but the situation… Continue reading We – the system
Making memories
When I got the news that I had to have my left breast removed I decided to make proper goodbye. Luckily I have amazing friends to help out so I managed to both make a plaster cast of my chest and a photoshoot to celebrate the era that was about to end. I was so… Continue reading Making memories
My story
It happened fast; I had my first visit to my doctor in January and now in late April I live with one breast and I’m soon going into chemotherapy. Up until the 20th of April I didn't consider me having cancer a real possibility. But it was. Every visit at the hospital has been worst case… Continue reading My story