As the healing of my scar progress, I feel the process mirrored inside of me. To say that the last seven months have been the worst of my life is still an understatement. Just saying the words in my head feels shocking: "I had cancer". Essentially the same disease that killed my grandmother. In general… Continue reading Healing is more than scar tissue
Fuck yes! Yes, yes, yes. YEEEES!!!!!! I'm out of my mind happy and yet tired and weary. This is surreal and I actually don't think anyone who hasn't been in this situation can understand what it feels like. I've done the entire six series of chemotherapy prescribed to me in April. But now it's done.… Continue reading Chemo and me are breaking up – the passionate love-hate story has finally come to an end!
If you wonder what you can do for someone in my situation or in a similar one, here's my personal advice for you, gathered from experience and written down in gratitude. A close and dear friend of mine recently reminded me of the following paradigm; focusing on and enhancing the positive things in your… Continue reading The best do’s – and a big don’t – for friends of cancer/chemo patient
Summer is coming to an end and my favorite season is here. I love the colors of autumn, the leaves turn orange and red, and the wind and rain sweeps everything clean and fresh. But yesterday the colors weren't there at all and it was just a splash too grey. Unfortunately I had to postpone… Continue reading Finishing line just became a moving target
Remember you are in charge of your life. Distressing events finding it's way to your life path doesn't automatically equivalent you being a victim. You have the ability to instruct yourself that just because a specific mechanism apply to many others in a certain situation, it doesn’t have to be true in regards to you.… Continue reading Take control! After all this life is yours to enjoy
Although I don't Master in Chemo for another three weeks*, I think I at least qualify for a bachelor degree. As a true scientist I will here present a list of findings that could be useful to someone going into chemo; things I wished I would have known. (And to be honest, I really, really… Continue reading 11 things you want to know about chemo
I had started writing a piece yesterday, it was rather depressing I guess, on how difficult things are getting and so on and so forth and yada yada. Note to self, don't write on the day of chemo; it's a bitch, the crying is happening all the time, making is hard to see things clearly,… Continue reading Bike on track
Is amazing how we adapt. I guess it's one of the most prominent features of mankind; you except new realities in a heartbeat. This is how we have colonized almost all parts of the earth, spanning from the hottest of deserts to the snow covered freezing arctic. I'm in neither environment, but nontheless this transformation… Continue reading Onwards and upwards towards new normals
Cancer warrior! Fight to beat cancer! War on cancer!!! Framing the cancer encounter as war, using the above terms, indicates a winner and a loser. It implies that a cancer patient is either a soldier or a battleground. I think we need to use these words with caution. It has the backside that if you're not strong… Continue reading Paintball Warfare
For anyone dealing with a crisis like this, you need to look at strategies to minimize the fear. Because it's such a great blow to the life you're living, it's crucial that you actively don't get sucked in the vortex of fear and despair. I have met so many amazing people online that send out… Continue reading Do you feel lucky, punk?