Although I don't Master in Chemo for another three weeks*, I think I at least qualify for a bachelor degree. As a true scientist I will here present a list of findings that could be useful to someone going into chemo; things I wished I would have known. (And to be honest, I really, really… Continue reading 11 things you want to know about chemo
Bike on track
I had started writing a piece yesterday, it was rather depressing I guess, on how difficult things are getting and so on and so forth and yada yada. Note to self, don't write on the day of chemo; it's a bitch, the crying is happening all the time, making is hard to see things clearly,… Continue reading Bike on track
(S)he’s got the look
My physical appearance has changed significally within the last couple of months and instead of taking it as a bad thing, I choose to see it as an opportunity. It has given me a lot of new potential looks and I have a blast doing it, I love to play with all the new attributes… Continue reading (S)he’s got the look
Onwards and upwards towards new normals
Is amazing how we adapt. I guess it's one of the most prominent features of mankind; you except new realities in a heartbeat. This is how we have colonized almost all parts of the earth, spanning from the hottest of deserts to the snow covered freezing arctic. I'm in neither environment, but nontheless this transformation… Continue reading Onwards and upwards towards new normals
Why would we ever want to call our bodies flawed? Why are our bodies policed and not under our own control? Why would we need to hide our bodies? Both having your breast removed and having a breast or nipple get problematised, in different settings, and both issues becomes accentuated in my position. Every time… Continue reading Fucking flawless
Cancer warrior! Fight to beat cancer! War on cancer!!! Framing the cancer encounter as war, using the above terms, indicates a winner and a loser. It implies that a cancer patient is either a soldier or a battleground. I think we need to use these words with caution. It has the backside that if you're not strong… Continue reading Paintball Warfare
Giving give and take takeaways
Halfway through. My energy is seeping through me like finely grained sand in my hands. It's so damn hard. I come to realise I cannot be the person I normally am. Suddenly acts of courtesy becomes insurmountable. I've dropped most interactions with others. My friends are remarkably supportive and I really wish I had more… Continue reading Giving give and take takeaways
A heavy heritage
I was 19 years old when my grandmother on my mother's side was diagnosed with breast cancer. At this point she had her breast removed without reconstruction. She didn't receive neither radiation nor chemotherapy, possibly because she declined - but I'm not sure. Then there was spreading to the thyroid, so that had to be… Continue reading A heavy heritage
Do you feel lucky, punk?
For anyone dealing with a crisis like this, you need to look at strategies to minimize the fear. Because it's such a great blow to the life you're living, it's crucial that you actively don't get sucked in the vortex of fear and despair. I have met so many amazing people online that send out… Continue reading Do you feel lucky, punk?
It happened fast; I had my first visit to my doctor in January and now in late April I live with one breast and I’m soon going into chemotherapy. Up until the 20th of April I didn't consider me having cancer a real possibility. But it was. Every visit at the hospital has been worst case… Continue reading My story